You continue to let others rule your choices, you are weak. I chose a path that gave me strength and purpose. Should I have sat by idly while our mothers forbade our love? Grown up to watch you and ready you for a life with another man? You may hurt as well as you should, but do not dare think for one second that I would have ended up any better. You would have killed me either way.
Do NOT call me weak! I would have left with you, with my parents’ blessing or not. You know I would have given up everything for you. But when you chose her, my hopes for us were ruined.
Yes, you’re right. Clearly I have no place in your life as your murderer. You have your new passion and you no longer want me. -feels her eyes well and is horrified, wiping away the tears as quickly as they fall- Do you want me to leave you now?
Just moments ago you were burning off your skin because he asked it of you. That is not strong. I know I have made many errors and turning into the darkness was not one of them. It allowed me to see things much clearer than I could have in the light. I walk among shadows, but so do you. Our shadows are simply and vastly different. I never wish you to leave me, only a fool wishes for anything.
However, if I asked you to leave with me now… what would you give me as your answer?
(Source: lottie-dolohov)
